Beauty From Pain

I cling to Your promise, there will be a dawn.

After all this has passed, I still will remain. After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain. Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again, and there'll be beauty from pain. You will bring beauty from my pain.

-beauty from pain, superchic[k]


I actually started this blog the other night and was hit with painful memories after reading the
lyrics to one of Skillet's new songs, "Believe" off their new album "Awake" (which drops August 25th...BUY IT!!) and ended up not getting very far in what I was going to say.

I was hanging out with my friend Liz the other day and she was putting songs on her mp3 player from my computer (she doesn't have a computer so I let her put her music on it via my computer) and she was going through and she asked me if she'd like the song "Beauty from Pain" by Superchic[k] and I told her to listen to it & find out, so she hit the play button and the song began.

Now I haven't heard that song for quite awhile, it used to be my cry song. The song that I used when I was feeling at my lowest of lows to remind me that "after all this has passed I still will remain/after I've cried my last there'll be beauty from pain." Even though I had lost every friend that I had ever counted as trustworthy and close, someday there would be beauty and purpose for my pain.

So now I'm sitting here and I'm looking back on that song and those days and nights filled with tears and aching and pain and I am realizing where the beauty comes from. The beauty comes from God separating you from everything, just for Him. I had to lose friends and go through some really hard things to understand how much God wants to have me love Him. It's really tough to go through something like that and not be able to see God at the time, but it is 100% worth staying true to Him. I can say that because, at the time, I didn't. I was ready to give up on life and everything I've loved and known just for peace from it all. But now, now I can say that I know better.

I've always heard people talk about it not feeling like God is there, even though He is, but I'd never experienced that firsthand. Now I have and I can also say, trust Him in what He is doing.

This blog might be one giant jumble of me rambling cuz I'm so tired but I hope it makes sense because it's a very elemental part of being a Christian.

Hold on now cuz things will get better.
It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.