yesterday today and forever

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday today and forever" -hebrews 13:8

No matter what happens in life, you can always run to Jesus and He'll still be loving and forgiving.

Nothing stops Him loving you.

Nothing.

where words fail, music speaks.

I take a walk in the bitter cold,
I try to see your face,
The way it used to be,
The sky was never grey,
There was a time when I let you in,
You turned my night to day,
But I turned you away

Burn back the sun,
Bring back the fire once,
Blazing inside this hollow cage,
Burn back the sun,
You were the only one
To love me with passion's quiet rage

I have tasted the apathy,
It's bitter on my lips,
I am not who I used to be,
Betrayal with a kiss,
Open mouth for the prodigal,
You kept the flame alive,
You keep this flame alive.

"burn back the sun" by decyfer down

Sleeping with your eyes wide open but closed inside

Where light and darkness both are blinding (2 CORINTHIANS 4:4)

The novella you write painted with the brush of night

That never has a happy ending

Decisions will make you or break you

Don’t let them pull away (PROVERBS 2:20-22)

Made a wish upon a falling star (ISAIAH 14:12)

Ran so fast you don’t know where you are

Wake up friend (MARK 13:36)

It’s just one life(HEBREWS 9:27)

It’s not too late (JEREMIAH 13:16 / LUKE 13:24-25)

Your ride is far from over

Far from over

Medicate away every nightmare that you create

If it falls short then try another

Doesn’t God see this? Wonder why He won’t throw the switch?

He’s asking you the same question (COLOSSIANS 3:5)

Decisions will make you or break you

Don’t let them pull away (PROVERBS 2:20-22)

Made a wish upon a falling star (ISAIAH 14:12)

Ran so fast you don’t know where you are

Wake up friend (MARK 13:36)

It’s just one life(HEBREWS 9:27)

It’s not too late (JEREMIAH 13:16 / LUKE 13:24-25)

Your ride is far from over

Far from over

"falling star" by disciple

i fully believe that when words fail at saying the necessary things, music takes over and speaks

with words and melodies in a way that simply speaking cannot do alone. songs can speak FOR us

when we can't speak ourselves. that's exactly what these 2 songs do for me. i can't say this stuff

out loud but i can sing it in a song. i find that amazing. ♥ music

expression.

To those in this world who seem to hate me for no reason:

"I'm not afraid of loving my enemies

Turning the other cheek
Blessing those that would curse me
I honestly want peace with you
But when you come against my country
When you come against my family
You try to destroy my people
I can't just stand by
There's no way that I can stand by
This time, I will not stand by
I am coming, and if I come, then pain is coming with me
I'm coming, and pain will be with me"

'game on' by disciple

say what you want about me. i can turn away. i can walk away. i WILL walk away.

mess with those who i care about though? i WON'T just stand there and watch.

is it possible to forget how to hope?

i don't know what's happened but the last couple of weeks i've just been so... depressed. it's ridiculous. i don't have any reason to be. but i am. i hate how people get worried because i want to just be happy and fix myself so they don't have to worry, but i really don't know how.

i wish i knew what happened to change things so suddenly. i wish i knew why i feel so insignificant. i remember the ideas i had, back when i was going to change the world, tell people about jesus and show them love. be a light.

now i feel like i'm unimportant with no worth. honestly, what good is my life doing? i don't see anything. i look at people like billy graham, john cooper, kevin young, jamie tworkowski...they are changing lives every. single. day. RADICALLY. but then..what am i doing? i wish i could say that at least one person is going to see jesus because of me but i can't say that even. i am such a failure it's ridiculous.

i don't understand why i'm so apathetic about Christmas. it's like everything that once held hope for me has been drained from me, taken away suddenly and i have nothing left.

i'd prefer to not have comments on this please. i know how pathetic it is.

Seasons.

Do you ever just KNOW that God is preparing you for something? That things are going to change & it's going to be sooner than you think?

Well, I've been feeling that way lately and I'm uneasy about it all. I know I CAN be strong when challenges and things come my way but I also know I tend to cave in to things I shouldn't and that I don't always handle things the way I should.

Seasons come and seasons go & God remains the same, I know all of that already.

I have nothing left to say but this,

God prepare me.

i practiced....for 2 hours???

holy cow. HOLY COW.

so i'm just writing this okay because i'm blown away.

i actually sat down (er.. stood and sat i s'pose if we want to be all technical about it)

and practiced bass for 2 hours tonight. okay some people are going to be like "so?"

especially those of you who play your instruments on a regular basis...except i haven't

played my flute in a long long time, and i've not touched/learned any other instruments

either.

anyways. i basically learned "take me in" by kutless and "blessed be your name" (which is

surprisingly easy...ha.) anyways. so i was going back & forth between the 2 & after awhile

i realized i was singing along...and okay, that was funny for me because um...you can't SING

while you play flute lol. i just found it humorous that i was multitasking and not even realizing

it.

anyway that's all, an update for now =)

ps-- keep it in your prayers that a friend from Tennessee that i have will be able to come & visit in April and go see Disciple & Decyfer Down with me!!! i'm really praying this happens because well that person hasn't seen Disciple live ever & it's for my birthday and plus i just really want to see this person. thing is, said person doesn't want to fly, he/she hasn't ever flown and doesn't like heights which makes it hard.

i really would love to see this person but it's still hard for me to believe people actually want to spend time with me & cross distances like that....anyway that's just me being stupidly negative.

okay 3:15 a.m. end blog.

graphic endeavors.

i decided to share some of my recent graphics with my faithful blog readers, they show up way better on here than facebook so enjoy them. i enjoy comments especially feedback & criticism. however, please keep in mind i am NOT good at this i just do it for fun & i'm still majorly learning.
















and a couple links to wallpapers (merely because they are so large in size):

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