"I Love You" could not be said a better way <3

Downhere - A Better Way
From the album Wide Eyed and Mystified

I'm not alone, I really believe
You never go, You never leave
Here and now, You always stay
“I love you” could not be said a better way

It's everything You've promised
There's no greater love than this
From prophets until today
A man laying down His life for His friends
Your sacrifice has spoken, You gave everything
And “I love you” could not be said
A better way

I am forgiven, I clearly see
It's why You came to do all you did for me
Trading earth with heaven, You took my place
“I love you” could not be said
A better way

Because You redeem, I know what's to come
Everything I could lose here, You've already won
So You have my surrender, with passion obey
“I love you” could not be said
A better way

This song is an amazing reminder. It always reminds me Whose I am, that I have nothing to worry about. Even tonight, at nearly 2 a.m. when I am fearful that a friend of mine will not be able to attend a concert of a lifetime, I can remember it's all in God's hands. There is nothing that can happen to me that would be too bad for God to handle and to Love. The price has been paid. "I Love You" can not be said a better way.

Seeking Direction

For the last few weeks I have felt like God is trying to tell me something...and I am completely at a loss for what that may be. I've never been very good at figuring out what He trys to tell me, I'm not the greatest listener and I fully admit that. The only thing I do know is that it involves some sort of new direction for my life...although I know nothing more than that. I feel I must confess I have not been reading my Bible like I should be and I know that is most likely the only place I will find the answers I seek. I've been praying more than ever though, and I feel that is good, but I have been praying for others...this is new for me because in the past I've said a sentence or two for other people but mostly focused on my life...and now I spend tons of time praying for my friends and not really me anymore. Ever since school started I have felt like my life was changing forever, now I'm in college, now I'm fully an adult. Sure I may still live at home, but I am completely responsible for myself now...and it terrifies me many days. I know I only have a few weeks left until my freshman year of college is over...and then it will be summer...job time, and I'm hoping and praying a time to reconnect with God. I'd like to blame my lack of study of the Word on school, but I know that it is very much my choice more than anything...and I am very willing to change, I know I need the change. So I guess what I am asking for is some prayers here, for anyone who reads my blog that is, I know not many do. But I really need some prayers for this...some big change is about to unfold I can feel it coming, but I need help seeking God's will in this...Thanks everyone ♥

Why I Smile Today: friends and love

A very dear friend made this for me for my birthday...and it brought tears to my eyes...happy tears. For the first time pretty much in quite awhile, I felt LOVED <3

Freakishly Accurate Quiz

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

link to quiz: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Sometimes Goodbye is a Second Chance

So, ever since today when I heard this song at school, it's been stuck in my head and I decided I really like it :)

It's called "Second Chance" by Shinedown

What's Better Than an Adventure?

Yesterday and today, I went on adventures again :)
To me, an adventure is exploring and hiking in nature and seeing things differently and finding beauty in God's creation. Yesterday, my bestie and I took off for a trail in town on the Roger Popple Nature Area in town and hike hike hiked :)








It really was amazing fun and I got some wicked sweet pictures of the sun through trees and cool stuff like that.





At one point, Liz and I were walking along the trail and we came across a knife sticking out of a tree O.o
Yes, a knife. I didn't want anything to do with it because who knows who it belongs (belonged) to???



So...we left it :S
And..continued on!



After quite a long ways along the trail, we found this wicked awesome abandoned bridge...and about this time, my camera batteries were being dumb and deciding to die :(
BUT I got a FEW pictures :)



So... that is all :)
Bahaha. the end.

when you're broken in a million little pieces, and you're trying but you can't hold on anymore...

Today's post is quite short, tis merely a song that touched my life for the second time in a meaningful way, which to me indicated that I should share it with others. Unfortunatly, I cannot embed the video I'd like because it's from Universal Studios and copyright blah blah, so here is the link to the one I want to show and the second best vid:

link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_WttEtp7QY&feature=related

second best vid:

A Tentative Post

So, yesterday, I started getting this feeling like I used to when I wrote poetry...but it was different. After several hours, I finally sat down with a pen and a notebook and thoughts and ideas started pouring out of me...and a plot for a story formed in my head. This led to me staying up til nearly 3 am writing 3 and a half pages of a story that just came out of nowhere. My post here is tentative because I am very hesitant when it comes to sharing my work with people...poetry is hard but longer pieces are even harder for me to share. Here, I am going to post the first bit of the story and based on people's feedback, I will decided whether or not to post the rest of it. As of right now, the whole thing is not even written yet, but I am going to maintain my resolve to post the first part. As of yet, this story has no title, but I will figure one out eventually. Here goes nothing...



Even though it was nearly the end of April, the breeze that whipped Mara’s stringy, black hair was reminiscent of a December blizzard-- harsh and unrelenting. Making her way up the familiar path, Mara clutched her schoolbooks closer to her chest so that she was nearly hugging herself. Wow. This wind is terrible! Mara thought to herself, Andy was right, I should have worn a jacket.

Her brother was always right; in school, at church, and especially when it came to the common sense things Mara had long since stopped caring about. If he weren’t so smug about always being right, Mara reasoned, maybe I wouldn’t try so hard to prove him wrong. She sighed.
Or maybe she would. How could she tell anymore? The numbness she had once gone to for peace and safety now ruled her every waking moment. It had been months since Mara had given up on the battle with her emotions. She told herself it was easier to feel nothing than to remember every terrifying, graphic detail. A remnant of who she used to be tugged at Mara’s conscious, but instead of facing it, she pushed the traitorous thought to the back of her mind and increased the volume on her ipod.

“I was broken for a long time, but it’s over now…” Knowing she was completely alone in the woods, Mara allowed herself to sing along with the next verse, losing herself in the strumming of the acoustic guitar. “…I used to think the past was dead and gone…I was wrong, so wrong.” Letting her voice carry to the skies, Mara closed her eyes and as she sang, she could feel a warmth spread throughout her body, miraculously extending to her soul.

With the last note echoing in the woods around her, Mara blinked her eyes open and realized for the first time just where her feet had taken her. She had not consciously come her. Sinking to her knees, she let her books fall to the mossy ground with a noiseless clatter. It was remarkable how much this secluded vale felt like home. Come to think of it, Mara never really could put her finger on what attracted her to this place time and time again. Breathing that moist, earthy scent always calmed her, no matter what she was dealing with.

Mara removed her headphones and fully took in her surroundings. Her first glance was reserved for the bubbly brook that led to a small waterfall several yards down; the slope of the fresh green hill was reassuring to her. No matter how right Andy was, this place would always be the one thing she never had to share with her brother. He might be her twin by blood, but there was never any closeness, no secrets shared, no inside jokes. Some things, Mara concluded bitterly, some things even your twin brother can never know.

Sighing out loud, Mara took one last deep breath before pulling her navy hooded sweatshirt over her head and rising to her feet. She was exposed to the frigid wind with nothing to shield her other than her thin cream camisole and tattered jean shorts.

Without a moment’s hesitation, Mara stepped to the edge of the smooth cliff and bravely gazed at the water, fifty feet below the precipice where she stood. Taking a deep breath, she jumped and twisted her body in a graceful pirouette. Mere seconds after her feet left solid ground, she heard a faint scream. Unable to see where the exclamation had come from, Mara hit the icy water and felt the breath leave her body.