Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
my inability to be comfortable around people. i always feel SO AWKWARD in social situations and i hate it.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
the only thing i love about me and the fact that i've chosen Jesus.
nothing else about me has worth really. just Jesus.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
hating myself. it started when my friend hurt me & said goodbye and gets worse
progressively then i break, get better for awhile and start the descent again.
i didn't do anything to her & need to stop hating myself for it.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
her, for almost making me break after i trusted another person again.
for the lies, for the hatred, for everything that makes the memories so hard.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
change someone else's life, be remembered.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
go back to college.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
my sisters & brothers and my nieces. friends every once in awhile, and Jesus.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
many people but i would never name names.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
i won't list names, just letters cuz it's not fair to them to be named here.
k, l, j, m, c, j, h, a, and lastly, m, at least i think on that one.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
need to let go... everyone.
and as far as the 2nd part to that question, everyone i've met, i don't wish not knowing anyone
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
hair or makeup. occasionally "you look cute". whatever they're just saying it to be socially acceptable.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
everything else that i didn't list above.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
disciple. skillet. linkin park. creed.
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down.
i don't like these naming people questions because it's rude. yes, i have some heroes who've let me down but no i'm not going to write it here. jeeze.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Jesus. Hope. Music. Art. the first 2 especially.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
boobs. you might laugh at me but seriously. they're just so annoying! they limit what you can
wear, they make it hard to exercise, ya gotta wear a bra all the time, it's just annoying!!
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
reading "a tale of two cities" changed my views on a lot things, especially selflessness.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
it's not okay. whether or not this angers my friends, i don't care.
no, i don't judge people who support gay rights, but i don't.
HOWEVER, i am not opposed to having friends who are gay or praying for them.
they're still people too and anyone who disagrees and treats them like crap ought to be slapped.
God loves everyone so what makes us any different?
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
religion is stupid. Jesus is way better :)
and politics.. they're pointless. the universe & world already has a King and if
everyone would just shut up their opinions & listen to Him things would go SOO much better.
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
they are meaningless addictions, not unlike sex, cutting, eating disorders or pornography, that
will ruin your life. God wants to have all of you, and not have you numb yourself with these momentary
pleasures. these addictions almost always ruin peoples lives and its so very sad when God could fix it
if they let Him. ((however i will state that alcohol isn't bad when used in moderation, it's the excessive
drinking or drinking to forget/escape life that becomes a problem)).
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
really depends on the car accident...if it's really serious, go visit them & swallow my pride. if its just a fender bender, find out if they're okay and ask they need me for anything. regardless, i would talk to them, a fight wouldn't stop me.
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
run from Jesus.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
started pursuing God much earlier on than i have
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
um i already did this like 2 days ago, made the playlist & it was for jared & i made it into a cd but i don't feel like posting it all here so i'm not going to right now. maybe if i get bored sometime i'll post it.
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Jesus Christ.
He is sufficient for everything i need.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
yes, twice.
first time was barely a month after i graduated high school in 2008.
i was super depressed & had just lost a lot of people very important & close to me.
it flooded HORRIDLY where i live and alls i saw was darkness and destruction and
i was hurting so badly that i decided it wasn't worth it anymore...but God saved me.
second time was very recently and it's tough to talk about still.
short & simple i had given up on life and joy and happiness.
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
falling in love with Jesus again... He never gives up and consistently loves me when
i mess up. no matter how far i fall, i merely need to speak His name and He's RIGHT THERE
ready to pick me up again and carry me until i can walk on my own. it's the most incredible thing.
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
if i was pregnant, no matter how it happened, i would birth the baby, whether or not i'd keep it
is a completely different story. i would NEVER have an abortion. ever.
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
to have more faith. to TRUST God, because i've been learning that i don't have as much
faith & trust in Him as i thought i did. He is growing me though & lessons are hard learned,
but intensely valuable in the end ♥
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Well that was an easy way to end this whole thing. Didn't have to write an answer.
