...cuz i know You can save her, Jesus, Savior

tonight, very triggered very afraid very alone.

had some music on random like i do, you know that whole needing-music-to-get-you-through kind of thing...well earlier today i had "romance me" by disciple on repeat and when i turned my ipod on and started playing it, romance me played and then "whatever reason" also by disciple came on and i was like ok cool, 2 disciple songs in a row.

well that was about 2 hours ago that happened and i had shut my ipod off while i cleaned and popped a cd in instead and just a few minutes ago when i turned it back on to listen to some music to maybe calm me down and help me stop thinking the thoughts i've been thinking, this song came on and i just started crying because a very special and close friend once when i was struggling, gave me a link to this song in a message and told me she was praying the lyrics about me that night and... when i turned my ipod on, this song came on and i just started crying and thinking of that friend and i found a reason to hold on tonight...

"Savior" by Disciple

Laughter, that’s so part of her
Is something that we haven’t heard
In such a long long time
Replaced with crying long sleepless nights
She needs your power Lord
Pour it all over
In her darkest hour Lord
Pour it all over

‘Cause I know You love her more than I could love her
You’ve already given more than I could offer
So I put my hope in You,
‘cause I know You can save her
Jesus, Savior

The problem hidden inside
Is screaming something’s not right
And I would lay down my world
To reach out and fix what’s broken in her

Deep within every stripe is the hope that I find within You