"a friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and

can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words"

saw this quote on a friend's profile and was struck with the thought

that i really liked that quote, that i wish i had that...except i don't

even know the song in my heart to begin with so how can i forget

the words?

the last few days, my music obsession has consisted mostly of

Saosin, Skillet and Disciple. the top 3 songs being "it's far better

to learn" (saosin), "collision" (disciple), and "would it matter" (skillet).

saosin being the most played. love saosin.

i realized something tonight at work. no matter who i'm around or

what the circumstances, i'm always looked down on, i'm either younger

or just not really respected or treated like an equal. it kind of stinks. a lot.

but then again i don't really deserve to be treated like anything special so

why do i feel like i should?

anyway... i have determined to be happy and content, if only for everyone else's

sake. what i feel and think doesn't really matter anyways does it?

i need to stop being so selfish.