in six days.

i am going to be going to see Disciple for the 4th time in the last 2 years,

i'm rather excited, especially with the VIP tix which means meeting tfk and

disciple and possibly ivoryline, though i'm not really into them much at all...

i'm going for disciple.

it's going to be nearly a 4 hour car trip and i'm kind of nervous about it...

it's going to be me and my friend who i haven't actually hung out with just

the two of us for quite some time. ever since my other friend has been living

at my house, he's always there whenever i hang out with anyone really so i

have mixed feelings about it. i'm hoping so very much that i'm paranoid and

it won't be weird but i won't lie that i have fear that our friendship is past

repairs...been there done that and it hurts beyond imagination.

for any of my friends who actually read this (i'm not entirely sure if anyone

does anymore...not that that keeps me from posting) i apologize for being

distant and empty lately. it's very easy to get lost in loneliness and just

accept "okay" and not push for more.

on another topic, i have such intense emotions about VIP tickets next thursday...

meeting tfk and more importantly, disciple. i fully believe i could be nervous

enough to throw up...my nerves have been known to do that before...dear jen,

i promise if i puke in your car it'll be out the window :P

alright there's an update i suppose.... i'm not too good at blogging regularly.